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最难过的一天

2009-11-12T20:43:00.000-08:00

一个在你小时,教你走路的人,教你吃饭,教你说话的人...突然间,要里你而去,那种感觉是何等的痛苦,难过...一个我爱的人,跟我最亲的人,突然,就要离开我,我真的很舍不得,很舍不得...我小时很叛逆,亲戚们都不喜欢我,只有妈一个人,用心教我,爱我...她跟我说,凡事不要斤斤计较,要活的开心...今天早上睡觉时,接到姐的电话,说妈可能过不到这个月,听到这个电话,我情不自禁的大哭一场,人说男人流血不流泪,可是当一个男人流泪时,就证明他的心比流血还疼上千倍.爸在我小时,就离我而去,现在....我不要...我还没读完书,还不能让妈过个好日子,我不要你这样就离我而去,我的心真的很痛,我不要看见你离开我的那一幕,我不要...我小时一经看见爸离我而去了....我不想变成孤儿...上天我求你...别那么狠心好吗?别把我最亲的人,都夺去好吗?我真的好想哭,很无助...

2009-10-19T04:55:00.000-07:00

刚接到姐的电话,她说妈需要动手术,我真的很担心妈,妈他真的很疼我,有一天当我回家放假时,她需要去医院复诊,我说我要陪可是她不给,那我也算了...回来时,看见妈她笑笑的,我以为妈没事了,妈她笑笑的对我说,医生看错报告,其实妈她没事的,妈还说院长来跟妈说对不起,我还信以为真,妈还说医生要赔回妈一里胸部,我听了真的很开心...以为上天听到了我的祈祷....哪知,有一晚妈没回家,我打电话给她她没听,过后从舅舅口中得知,妈她去医院了....为什么?不是没事的吗?为什么还要去医院?...我真的没心情写下去了...对不起...晚安

2009-09-12T09:31:00.000-07:00

everytimes blog...i also feel sad...i dunno wer to release my feeling...so i choose to blog...ytd receive sis call...told tat mom juz finish for x-ray...but doc say tat found some cancer cell inside the stomach...wat!!!!!!!breast already gt cancer cell le...nw stomach somemore...i really feel so scare...scare will lost my mom...but no one noe my feeling even the most close of me de u...u also dunno...i dun wan quarrel le...i keep tolding u i today so sad...but y u still cant hear?y still must quarrel?i really scare i will betahan...my heart already very sad and keep on pain le...i scare i will cant tahan and suddenly die...i really scare of tat...i nw wat also dun hope...i juz hope i can get a gud result to make my mom happy..cheer she...and...i juz hope can get a well sleep...i already 2 day cant sleep well le...my mind so luan...haiz...

2009-08-05T04:20:00.001-07:00

It end Tonite...chun and peh...i hear u 2 de...i will gg it...bye

2009-08-01T11:03:00.000-07:00

juz bac from kl...zzz tired only...i c dao one father and his son playing at the garden...c they play until so happy...let me think bac my dad ne...haiz...if my dad still here then him ma can teman me play le luu~...2moro wan match me...hope can win...althought i noe it is very hard but i will try my best...erm...i gt one conclusion wan share with all friend...MOM really wont kira with their child...dun care their child do wat wrong or wan wat they also will forgive their child...tis is MOM LOVE...but we do child de if noe mom do wrong,will we forgive mom?will we wont angry mom?i dunno hw to answer...maybe we will maybe we wont...for those who no treasure their mom de,hope they will noe they are wrong...if unluckly our mom suddenly die...we wan treasure them also no chance le ne...haiz...TEASURE UR MOM !!!!DUN LET THE CHANCE GONE!!!

2009-07-29T23:50:00.001-07:00

All will be END tonite...

2009-07-26T06:46:00.000-07:00

Be4 wen i din have com and cant on9,i always pray tat i can have a com and can on9...but nw gt com and can on9 everyday...i feel sian pula...haiz...i dun wan be like cant live if without com...so i wan reduce on9 reduce play com...i dun wan 2 yi lai com ne....haiz....4 those who so yi lai com de...better change le ne...dun wan face on com 2 much o...no gud 4 health de...^^...gud nite

2009-07-24T23:17:00.000-07:00

Haiz...so long din blog already...because of sicklah...haiz....until 2day also din recover yet...haiz...2day friend wan go waterfall play...haiz....i wan follow also cant...sad ne...miss all my friend so much ne....yo...tis weekend juz can stay in room...wer also cant go,wat also cant eat juz can eat roti....so pity nia....erm....next week wan go k.l o...miss my antonia and sis nia...haha....wan fas fas go bac home eat sis cook de rice ne and play with antonia...^@^

2009-07-22T03:30:00.000-07:00

wat the hell happen to me...whole body warm warm one...and nouse gt some water one...haiz...sick jor....haiz...sick sick sick....always sick....wtf...is tat my body so beh ki???haiz....TAK LARAT already...please dun always sick le teik khai...haiz

2009-07-21T16:28:00.000-07:00

2day morning,after i have done all my prepare i see still gt some times,so i go c my friend blog...chung,no nid feel sad de...i believe u can de...ur hardworling i can c...u even more hardworking than me...so u must can de...and u also gt ur kai sis teach u...so u lagi boleh...haiz...later econ test already...dunno can or not..hope god will bless me ne....and...today is mom go checking day...hope doc will say tat mom nth...haiz...hope can fas fas go bac kedah ne...miss my mom and all my fellow friend...dunno hw is they all ne....^^...klah...bye...i wan go fight with econ le...haha^^...muacksss

2009-07-21T03:33:00.000-07:00

Math Quiz finish jor...haiz...damn careless...do wrong one question....negative negative becom positive also do wrong....haiz....erm...but nvmlah...rest de still k...hehe......haiz......2moro exam econ...no read finish..die..so nw no times for me to write blog le...nite all...muackss^^

2009-07-20T08:01:00.000-07:00

HaHa...this is the 1st times i use english write my blog...== if my english poor, pls dun laugh me ...i am learning ma...haha...sweet yee , c i use english write blog ne ...geng leh...haha gt scare dao ma?thx u o laopo...muackss...i will learn hw to write in well english and i wan improve my english 2...haha...hope we 2 can always happy like nw ....haiz....so many thing need to study...wan die le ne...but i will fight for my future de...haha...klah wan study le...gud nite all...sweetdream...muackssss...

2009-07-17T11:31:00.000-07:00

现在是凌晨2.30..好难过的一个夜晚....我很希望我blog将来会写的是开心的事而不是伤心的事...这是我想说的...好想喝酒,想把一切痛苦都丢掉...晚安....

2009-07-17T04:25:00.000-07:00

今天在朋友家做课业时,有个朋友她问我:'德凯,你妈发生了事,你还能那么开心哦?'这句话在我心盘绕着很久,过后我告诉了她:'其实,我也很伤心只是我不想把我的不快乐带给我身边的每个人'其实,我很希望和我做朋友的都能开开心心.我喜欢看到朋友们的笑容,当朋友有问题不开心时,我会很努力去逗他或她开心,这就是我...我不喜欢把我伤心的一面露在朋友面前,我不想我朋友被我影响...有一句话想对我一个很好很好的朋友说,maggie...昨晚,我听见肉条,说你有事,我希望你听了我这句话时能好点...不关家里发生什么事,你都应该坚强的去面对,要坚持下去...你跟我都是没有了父亲的人,所以我们会比其他人更坚强,我相信你能做到的...加油...还有我...虽然妈的报告还没出,可是如果真的不幸患上了癌症.我不懂我能不能坚持的到...我也很怕我会...我会...倒下去...所以我只能默默向上天祈祷希望那一天不会来临...我最爱的朋友们,谢谢你们一直鼓励我...给我勇气...谢谢你们...我爱你们...

2009-07-16T06:33:00.000-07:00

夜深了,深得不听见心跳,今天是个漫长的一夜...我很感激我的朋友们,他们个个都很支持我,有你们的支持,我一定能撑下去...友情是我最可贵的宝藏,刚来金宝时,害怕自己会交不到朋友,因为我怎样说都是一个从乡下出来的...幸好,真的很有幸,上天把我放ta9,让我认识到一些很好的朋友,当我脚折到时,我的班长康哥任劳任怨的载我去医院,过后还叫我去他家住以便他能照顾我,我很感谢他真的...还有马哥,废仔,忡哥,他们真的是我最好的朋友...我想出去吃东西时,只要叫他们,他们都会来载我,坦白说真的谢谢你们...哈哈,舒恩昨天的事对不起了,我的玩笑开太过分了...大佬,我觉得很对不起你,真的对不起,让你的分数变少...包包脸几是要去唱歌哦?哈哈,嘉英谢谢你哦,我搬家时你过来帮我...棋棋来啦,dota hor...put ur house come...哈哈,还有我二校的朋友你们怎样了?我真的好想你们!我九月回去了,到时我们在出来喝茶好吗?友情是用钱都买不到的东西,所以那些只会利用朋友的人最好改过,要不然你会后悔的...

2009-07-15T13:54:00.000-07:00

今晚我没睡到,我不懂你还有多少东西是骗我的,我好想找个人来诉说可是都找不到因为全都睡了.跟你在一起,我一只都有压力.你的思想太负面了,难道你就不能往好的方向去想吗?我看你这样我很伤心,我能怎样?我是一个很开朗的人,我不喜欢想不开心的事.可是你就不了解我,一直说我很孩子气.如果我也跟你一样一直往负面的方向去想那我的人生一定很悲哀.今天,我发现了你你个秘密.你从来都没告诉过我.我很伤心.我不懂要怎样.我尝试去逃避不去想可是我做不到.对不起,拜托你,有什么事都告诉我好吗?我不想在这样去猜下去...我很累了...上次让你伤得那么伤.可是我还很内疚.我一直责备自己.你懂吗?你不懂...你一直都认为我是个大男人可是你错了.自从我爱上你的那一刻.我以不在是以前的我了,我们一直都会吵架...我从来都没觉得你烦我可是为什么你会觉得我烦你呢?有一天你跟我说你朋友叫你不要跟我在一起.我听了很伤心.难到我真的那么不配做你男友吗?你说你很叛逆,难到你跟我在一起也是这样吗?这几天.我都要崩溃了.妈又不懂得了什么病.昨天当妈发信息来告诉我她很痛苦.我这做孩子的真没用.妈那么痛苦可是我什么都做不到...妈的事要烦,书的事要烦.连你也要我烦.我不懂我还能撑多久...有时我真的希望有一个人能给我依靠,让我大哭一场,可是你没在我身边,所以我被逼躲在厕所一个人哭....我真的不想再烦那么多,天你可以告诉我要怎样吗?我真的很无助...我真的想放下一切奔向一个无忧无虑的地方...我累了...我真的累了....